Inspiration For The Song
When I realized trouble had found me I was hearing those exact words come out of his mouth after a fight at a gas station on a Saturday night at 3am. That was one of those “2 x 4 upside the head moments of clarity” when you know it’s just not a match. This song actually references two failed relationships, both true stories. It took me a few instances to come to my senses about what works for me and what doesn’t. Whether it’s dating or anything else, I now know more than ever that failure is definitely part of the success.
When I was growing up as a young girl in Indiana, I had a crush on Michael Jordan (we watched a lot of basketball in the hoosier state). I would watch the Chicago Bulls play on tv with my dad and then I would go to sleep having dreams about MJ. Anyway;) I had a poster with his famous quote about failure on it that I took to college with me my freshman year and hung on my wall. You may have seen it, it goes like this, “I’ve missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I’ve lost almost 300 games. 26 times, I’ve been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I’ve failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed.”
I used to stare at that poster all the time thinking how inspirational it was. I think that’s why I had the crush in the first place, I was just in awe of how great he was. But now I can say I finally get it because I’m finally living it. And that’s just what it takes for me to learn - DOING.
Another time this dawned on me was when I was getting my master’s degree in education. We were learning all these new cool ways to teach the kids and I thought to myself…man, if only my teachers had known to teach me the “discovery method” when I was the student in elementary school. I used to take all my grand plans into the classroom after nights of preparation only to see them squashed by a room full of squirrelly third graders in an instant, and then have to think on my feet for plan D, E and F. And I was reminded then too, this is how it works. The discovery method is allowing yourself permission to experiment and come to conclusions on your own based on your experience without people spoiling it for you, telling you the answer, or showing you how to do it.
So, with this second single release, you have found me rising into a new state of being. More aware now of what I want. Manifesting new possibilities and abundance into my life. Trusting my intuition, utilizing my resources, and asking the universe to show me all the ways I can show you who I am. So here I am. I am Jenny Shawhan. I was put here to sing. And sing I will (insert Yoda voice). I will allow you to hear my voice. And this time I give you a song poking a little fun at denial and calling out the bluff. We’ve all got a bit of that in us. After all, it’s how we learn, right?!
That's it! Come join me for the release show at the Syntax Opera on Broadway in Denver June 7th!